Missing You

With Abi's passing and funeral being already a month away, I am left to wonder how can this life be so short!I look at her pictures everyday and still have not deleted her phone number and she still remains my facebook friend. I look at her pictures everyday and long to talk with her or get a funny text message that would make me smile. I go through the normal emotions of feelings that at times flood my thoughts and fill my eyes with tears. "What if" remains even though I promised myself that I would not get to this point. I say a prayer that the Lord would send me His peace. And being the merciful and loving God that He is He sends me his Peace and I get through another day. I am thankful to God for the moments, memories, conversations that I hold on to. I hold on to them tightly so they do not fade along with other things that I have already forgotten. I think the quiet moments are the hardest. When the house is silent and I am left to myself with only my thoughts. Days like today when I miss her most seem to be the hardest! Oh Lord I know that she is no longer hurting, but I miss my cousin, I miss my friend! Will you send me your Holy Spirit to comfort me tonight? Thank you for the gift of Life, thank you for my life and the blessings that fill it. My cup runeth over...